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?Monday, September 14, 2009

New blog's out .
threefourthreefour.blogspot.com
HOWEVER .
I need help with a stupid blogskin error .
I NEED HELP !
Someone enlighten me .
Now off to chiong SS & Literature .

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Took the handwriting crapola quiz thingy && was totally surprised by the results .
The ones in ITALICS refers the the OLD test .
The ones in NORMAL refers to the NEW test .
The [ ITALICS ] are personal comments .
Here you go . ;D

This personality profile is based on the writing of Di Amherst created at - : - automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through - .

Di is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
[ LOL really ? Not too sure about that . ;D ]

Di will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Di an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
[ The moody part's true , like wtv . Ambivert ; not too sure about that . ]

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Di is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
[ HAH TRUE ! Last line = emo kid . HAHA ! ]

Di is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
[ So true ! The hell with politics . ]

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Di doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
[ Huh LOL wokaaaaaaaay ? ]

Di will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Di believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
[ HELL YEAH . ]

Di will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
[ HELL YEAH . IN YOUR FACE ASSES ! ]

Di has a desire for attention. People around Di will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.
[ I can't deny this , can I ? Heh . ]

In reference to Di's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Di slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
[ Kinda exaggerating a little , but it does have some truth in it . ]

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Di can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
[ LOL . It all goes over my head . Not too sure . ]

Di is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Di basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
[ HAHA CHYYEAH ! Wokay wtv . ]

Something is incomplete in Di's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Di's sexual needs.
[ I have sexual frustration . How cool's that ? ;DD ]

Di has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
[ SSDD . 'Nuff said .]

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Di has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Di fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Di has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Di seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Di seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.
[ OLD STORY OLD STORY ! I'm so much better then that now . ]

Di is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Di an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
[ Ditto above . ]

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Di is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
[ Ditto above . ]

People that write very large tend to be very social and friendly. It seems Di has this type of writing. This indicates a need for people and a particular natural ability to socialize and be the life of the party. Now, if Di also has specific fears (like fear of criticism or fear of trust) then she will deny she is the life of the party, because fear has overcome her natural inclination to be social. People with large handwriting tend to be effective at anything that requires interaction with lots of people. She is a people person.
[ Fears , quite true . People's person , nahh . Seriously . ]

Di will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Di believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
[ Ditto above . ]

Di has a desire for attention. People around Di will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.
[ Ditto above . ]

According to the inputted data, Di has a stinger shape inside the oval of her a, d, or c. This might be hard to visualize, but if this little hooklike shape is present, then Di has an unresolved "issue" with strong members of the opposite gender. An occasional appearance of this stroke could indicate a simple "loves a mental challenge" which can manifest in playful linguistic conversations and being attracted to a lover who isn't always available. However, if the stroke is severe, this means the individual has unresolved anger at the oppostive gender - which usually started with the person's childhood relationship with the opposite gender parent (Mom or Dad). If the writer is a woman she will be attracted to strong challenging men. If the writer is a man, he will find the woman who is "hard to get" the most attractive. In a nutshell, people with stingers in their writing tend to have challenges in their romantic relationships. Remember, it is only negative if the traits occurs often and is quite pronounced. An occasional stinger can be no problem.
[ HAH ! Thank god mine's occasional . But a little random nonetheless . ]

In reference to Di's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Di slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
[ Ditto above . ]

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Di can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Di basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
[ True . 'Nuff said . ]

Di has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.
[ True . 'Nuff said . ]

Something is incomplete in Di's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Di's sexual needs.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Di changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Di feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.
[ HAH , special like a retarded kid . That's sad . ): ]

Di has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
[ Ditto above . ]

Di has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Di's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Di has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Di is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.
[ I am so not commenting on that . Cause it's true so 'nuff said . ]

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Di has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Di fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Di has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Di is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Di is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.
[ See I told you . ]

BLABLABLA .
Read and shit and korek your hidung .
Tags to your left .
Now I wanna buka .
Bye zombies !
<3

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?Thursday, August 20, 2009

Di Amherst ; I'm a skanky brat with a sexy smile who cuddled with a pornstar because I have AMAZING boobs !
Erwin Valo ; I'm a stupid sex addict with a hot girlfriend who got stabbed horribly by a prostitute because the lil people told me to .

First, add "I'm a/an" on your title, then add the rest of the answers on as you do the questions.

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[x] Green = stupid
[ ] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[x] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?
[ ]Shorts = cutie
[ ]Skirt/skort = skank
[ ]Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ]Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ]Ripped jeans = emo
[ ]Camo = cage fighter
[ ]Jeans = prep
[ ]Pajamas = pimp
[ ]Cargo = clown
[ ]Sweats = athlete
[x]Boxers = brat
[ ]Booty shorts = female
[ ]Capris = Gangster
[ ]Nothing = hoe
[ ]Dickies = weirdo
[ ]Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[x]Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ]Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ]Blonde = with a broken heart
[x]Black = with a sexy smile
[x]Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Red = that likes to have fun
[ ]Brown = who loves to be different
[ ]Dirty blonde= with a nice ass
[ ]Bald = with herpes

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ]1 = who ate
[ ]2 = who needed
[ ]3 = who killed
[ ]4 = who shot
[ ]5 = who killed
[ ]6 = who smoked with
[ ]7 = who banged
[ ]8 = who ran shirtless with
[x]9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[x]10 = who cuddled with
[ ]11 = who slept with
[ ]12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ]01 = the kool-aid man
[ ]02 = a dog
[ ]03 = a shoe
[ ]04 = a toothbrush
[ ]05 = Santa Claus
[ ]06 = The Trojan man
[ ]07 = Barney the dinosaur
[x]08 = a prostitute
[x]09 = a porn star
[ ]10 = a bag of weed
[ ]11 = my lover
[ ]12 = a glass of milk
[ ]13 = a horse
[ ]14 = a lesbian
[ ]15 = a stripper
[ ]16 = a pickle
[ ]17 = a jew
[ ]18 = a homo
[ ]19 = an orange
[ ]20 = my mom
[ ]21 = a homeless guy
[ ]22 = a whore
[ ]23 = my crush
[ ]24 = an easter egg
[ ]25 = a jar of honey
[ ]26 = a condom
[ ]27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ]28 = a french fry
[ ]29 = your dealer
[ ]30 = Paris Hilton
[ ]31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[ ]Black = because I'm sexy as hell
[x]Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[x]Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ]Red = because I'm a pimp and you're jealous
[ ]Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ]Purple = because I'm gay
[ ]Gray = because I got dared
[ ]Other = because that's how I roll
[ ]Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ]Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ]Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ]Brown = because I had to
[ ]Shirtless = because I've got abs

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?Thursday, August 13, 2009

The Hurt Survey.
Let's see if you can get through it.
If not, you're too scared about the truth.

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
HELL YEAH .

2. Are you crushing on someone?
No .

3. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah . But I got over it .

4. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
No .

5. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I'm okay with either .

6. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
I think only once .

7. Have you ever had your heart broken?
HAHA , yeah .

8. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I hope not .

9. Talk to your ex?
Haha , yeah .

10. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Definitely .

11. Think any of your ex's want to go back out with you.
Khairil Izad , Winnie .

12. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I guess .

14. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yeah .

15. Do you want to get married someday?
LOL yeah .

16. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you?
Yeah , way back in primary school .

17. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yeah , but he was single at that time and it was just infatuation , so it doesn't really count .

19. Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
No .

20. How many times have you really truly been in love?
Just once .

Which Indie Movement Are You?

Riot Grrrl
Ok, you're a bit of a feminist
You love DIY
You're pretty liberal
You've been treated badly by a guy
You hate major record labels
You've got a lot of anger
Total: 4

Shoegaze
You tend to look down at your shoes when you walk
You love the UK
You don't talk very loud
You're kind of mopey
Guitars are your favorite instruments
It's hard for you to make conversation sometimes
Total: 3

Alt-Country
You like southern culture
It's the simple things in life that matter most
You were raised on punk music
Darker lyrics are appealing to you
It's hard for people to really define you
Total: 2

Twee Pop
You like cutesy things like kittens and sprinkles
You love 60s pop
You like things that are simple and innocent
Stuart Murdoch is a god
You can be overly sentimental at times
People can't help but think you're adorable
Total: 2

Indietronica/Dance Punk
You just wanna dance!
You love clubbing
Freezepop Forever
You're not very serious
You can't focus on one thing for very long
You like bright colors
Total: 5

I am: Indietronica / Dance Punk

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?Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I wanna pierce my tongue LOL .
I'm tired , sick and grungy - ish .
No updates .
That's all for now .
I want my cigarettes ASSHOLE .

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?Thursday, August 06, 2009

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .

FUCK OFF .

KTHXBAI .

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?Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Yesterday , I had a conversation with KOT aka ORANG TUA aka RAHMAT .
Hahaha . ;D
It's been like so long since I saw him online .
Then it was such a coincidence that he was online on the day I was feeling really confused .
LOL .
Won't say why , but if you know , then you know .
So then I was just talking to him about lotsa stuff .
Then he brought up stuff that I forgot about and stuff I remembered .
Like how I punched him in the stomach because he touched me in P5 and the argument I had with SOFIAN .
And how I used to marah him habis - habis a lotttttttttt .
HAHA .
Then we talked about lotsa stuff and it made me feel better .
THANKYOU ORANG TUA !

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?Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Pick a person for each month! and don't look at the questions before you start!

January - Danny
February - Asyraf A.
March - Jennah
April - Isaac
May - Wawan
June - Nabilah
July - Rahmat
August - Khairil I.
September - Laura
October - Khairil A.
November - Masyitah
December - K. Hazwan

JANUARY = Danny
1. Does this person go to your school?
NEP .

2. What is this person's favourtie band?
Avenged Sevenfold 1m1;

3. How long have you known this person?
1 year ?

4. Do you hangout with this person?
Jyeah .

5. Do you have a nickname for them?
Budak Kecik II

FEBRUARY = Asyraf A.
1. Are you close to this person?
Something like that . My personal whale . ;P

2. Do they play sports?
Don't think so .

3. Do you love them?
As a friend , DUH ._.

4. What colour of hair do they have?
Black .

5. Does he/she make you laugh?
HELL YEAH .

MARCH = Jennah
1. Do you live close to this person?
Not really .

2. Who do they hangout with the most?
The boys ?

3. Does he/she have a boyfriend/girfriend?
Jyeahh , me ! ;D

4. Do you like there clothes?
Some .

5. Do you think there pretty?
Jyeah .

APRIL = Isaac
1. Are you related to them?
No .

2. Is he/she fun to be around?
DUH ._.

3. Does he/she have Facebook?
Nahh .

4. Have you ever travelled with them?
Somewhat .

5. Would you ever go out with him/her?
SKIP .

MAY = Wawan
1. Do you like to party with them?
HELL YEAH .

2. Do you two have any inside jokes?
JYEAH .

3. Have you ever went shopping with this person?
Jyeah .

4. Who are their bestfriend(s)?
Neesa , Zully .

5. How long have you known them?
3 months .

JUNE = Nabilah
1. Do you two get along?
HELL YEAH .

2. Do they have any pets?
Nahh .

3. What word(s) describes them best?
KIND !

4. What kind of music does this person like?
Radio - safe ones ?

5. Is this person tall?
To me .

JULY = Rahmat
1. Do you get along with this person?
Jyeahh .

2. Boy or girl?
Boy .

3. Have you ever had a crush on this person?
Haha old story .

4. Is this person popular?
Think so .

5. Do you like their shoes?
I don't know what his shoes look like .

AUGUST = Khairil I.
1. Are you two sisters?
He's a guy !

2. What is his/hers favourite colour?
Purpur - brown .

3. Do they know you well?
Jyeah .

4. Do they have any siblings?
Older sister .

5. Do you have their number?
Jyeahh .

SEPTEMBER = Laura
1. Would you ever date them?
NO .

2. Do they like anybody?
Jyeahh .

3. What color of eyes do they have?
Black .

4. Are they your only friend?
NOO .

5. Do you think there a good singer?
Jyeah .

OCTOBER = Khairil A.
1. Are they crazy?
HELL YEAH .

2. Do they have their own house?
NO .

3. Have they ever liked you?
As an adeq !

4. Have you ever hugged them?
DUH ._.

5. How old are they?
1 day younger than me !

NOVEMBER = Masyitah
1. Have you two had any sleepovers together?
Nahhs .

2. Are you guys bestfriends?
HELL YEAH .

3. Are they in love with someone?
Think so .

4. Do you have any memories together?
Lots .

5. Do they like to dance?
Erh .

DECEMBER = K. Hazwn
1. Do you guys usually hang out?
Not really , unless we want to . * evil grin *

2. Do you have a crush on this person?
LOL no .

3. Does this person have a crush on you?
HAAHAA ! NOOOOOOOO .

4. Would you ever date this person?
IDK ?

5. Do they like to dance?
Think so LOL .

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?Friday, July 31, 2009

I'm bored .
So here are the attack of random thingsys .

Bold/X What You've Had In The Past Week.

LIQUIDS:
[x] water (1 point)
[ ] orange juice (1 point)
[ ] skim milk (1 point)
[ ] 2% milk (2 points)
[ ] soda (3 points)
[ ] diet soda (1 point)
[x] beer (5 points)
[ ] champagne (5 points)
[ ] any other alcohol (5 points)
[ ] V8 (1 point)
[ ] tea (1 point)
[ ] Grape Drink (2 points)
[ ] cranberry juice (2 points)
[ ] apple juice (2 points)
[ ] capri sun (3 points)
[ ] hi-c (3 points)
[ ] Kool Aid (3 points)
[ ] chocolate milk (4 points)
[ ] strawberry milk (4 points)
[x] coffee (2 points)
Total for this category: 8

SOLID FOODS:
[ ] pizza (3 points)
[ ] Tacos (2 points)
[ ] Burritos (2 points)
[x] Rice (1 point)
[ ] beans (1 point)
[ ] Hamburger (3 points)
[ ] Veggie burger (1 point)
[ ] Fries (4 points)
[ ] ham (2 points)
[ ] Lamb (2 points)
[] hot dog (3 points)
[x] chicken (2 points)
[] turkey (2 points)
[ ] beef (2 points)
[ ] fish (1 point)
[x] spaghetti (2 point)
[ ] fettuccini (2 point)
[ ] Mac & Cheese (3 points)
[ ] Steak (2 points)
[ ] shrimp (1 point)
[ ] lobster (2 points)
[ ] crab (2 points)
[x] sushi (2 points)
[ ] pork (2 points)
[ ] lettuce (1 point)
[ ] eggs (2 points)
[ ] bacon (4 points)
[ ] baked potato (2 points)
[ ] sausage (5 points)
[ ] pancakes (3 points)
[ ] French Toast (3 points)
[ ] Freedom Toast (10 points)
Total for this category: 7

FAST FOODS:
[ ] McDonald's (10 points)
[ ] Burger King (10 points)
[ ] Wendy's (10 points)
[x] Kentucky Fried Chicken (10 points)
[ ] Taco Bell (9 points)
[ ] Harvey's (8 points)
[ ] Hardee's (8 points)
[ ] Pizza Hut (7 points)
[ ] Popeye's Chicken (7 points)
[ ] Arby's (7 points)
[ ] Swiss Chalet (5 points)
[ ] Any Steak House (5 points)
[ ] Denny's (5 points)
[ ] Subway (3 points)
Total for this category: 10

SNACKS:
[ ] Potato Chips (4 points)
[ ] baked Potato Chips (2 points)
[ ] Doritos (5 points)
[ ] Pringles (5 points)
[ ] rice/soy cakes (2 points)
[ ] chocolate cake (7 Points)
[ ] vanilla cake (7 points)
[ ] other kind of cake (7 points)
[ ] bananas (1 point)
[ ] strawberries (1 point)
[ ] grapes (1 point)
[ ] apples (1 point)
[ ] Oranges (1 point)
[ ] mango (1 point)
[ ] pineapple (1 point)
[ ] peach (1 point)
[ ] kiwi (1 point)
[ ] Fruit cups (3 points)
[ ] popsicles (4 points)
[ ] Ice cream (7 points)
[ ] cookies (5 points)
[ ] snack cakes (4 points)
[ ] popcorn (1 point)
[ ] crackers (2 points)
[ ] tiggers (2 points)
[ ] marshmallows (5 points)
[ ] poptarts (4 points)
[ ] peanut butter (4 points)
[ ] jelly (3 points)
[ ] peanuts (2 point)
[x] sunflower seeds (2 points)
[ ] any other kind of nuts (2 points)
[ ] pudding (4 points)
[ ] cheesecake (7 points)
[ ] hersheys chocolate (5 points)
[x] granola bar (4 points)
[ ] Good cereal like raisin bran/special K (2 points)
[ ] Bad cereal like Coco Puffs/Lucky Charms (6 points)
Total for this category: 6

Liquids: 8
Solids: 7
Fast Foods: 10
Snacks: 6
Grand Total: 31 .

Now for the Scale:
Under 25: You have a serious problem with a lack of food, possible eating disorder. Seek help

Under 45: A level that requires attention, you need to make time to eat cause you're not doing yourself any favors.

Between 45 and 85: This is what I will consider a good, balanced and well taken diet. If you're in here, you have a displined diet and are serious about what you put into your body.

Between 85 and 115: If you're in this category, I call you the fun loving food type. You love to eat, but eat only when you want to and are capable of keeping a grip on things and not overdo it. This is what I would call the middle ground. Not too strict, but not too free.

Between 115 and 145: This isn't bad, but it's no where near good either, but you're getting close to having a bad problem with fatty foods... especially fast foods.

Over 145: I really think the only way you can top this is to eat a lot if not most of the fast foods. This means you are a fatty and need to cut out the greasy foods

Over 170: The opposite of the lowest scale... seek help.

Let's Start With Some Random Questions
Is your mirror clean?: Jyeah .
Do use tissues or a handkerchief?: Tissues .
Is anything wrong with your eyes?: Yes , myopic .
When is that last time you weighed yourself?: Few weeks ago ?
Do you wear eyeliner?: Jyeahh .
Are you chronically bored?: YEAH !
Weapon of choice?: Werds .
Do you throw your candy wrappers away?: Yes .
Are you a litterbug?: No LOL .
Do you like poison?: IDK , never tried it .
Last time you went to the beach?: June hols ?
Your MSN/AIM/YIM Screen name?: Di Spitzack .
Story behind your default?: Baby picture .
Is your Myspace song your favorite song?: No .

Let's Talk Tears
Last time you cried?: I forgot .
Reason you last cried?: I felt really hurt .
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?: jyeah .
Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?: Maybe ?
Who makes you cry most often?: A person .
Do you cry when you're happy?: No .
Do you cry when you get an injury?: NO ._.
Do you cry when you are scared?: So far , not yet .
Has your best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend ever made you cry?: Jyeah .
Have you ever cried during a movie?: Jyeah .
Do certain songs make you cry?: Just teary , will not really cry .
Are you crying right now?: LOL no .

This or That
Mozzerella or Cheddar?: Mozzarella .
Spaghetti or Macaroni?: Either .
Shrimp or Crab?: Crab .
Ocean or Sky?: Sky .
Beach or Park?: Both .
Dog or Cat?: Skip .
Dark Chocolate or White Chocolate?: Dark .
Light or Dark?: Dark .
Digital Camera or Camera Phone?: Digital camera . Prefably an EOS or DSLR .
Puppet or Stuffed Animal?: IDK .
Sesame Street or Barney?: SESAME STREET ! <3
Pooh or Tigger?: Tigger .
Chocolate Milk or Orange Juice?: Chocolate Milk .
Tacos or Burritos?: Either .

Put Your Playlist On Shuffle, Click 'Next' For Every Question
Your Theme Song: Nickelback - Far Away
Your Love Life: A Rocket To The Moon - Baby We're Invincible
What You Listen To When Your Sad: Bullet For My Valentine - Say Goodnight
Your Wedding Song: Brokencyde ft. Scene Kidz - DAMN!
Your Funeral Song: Black Witchery - Upheavel Of Satanic Might
Your Friends: Smile Empty Soul - Loser
Every Day: AC/DC - Highway To Hell
Reason To Laugh: Weezwer - Pork and Beans
When You're Dancing:

Your Top Eight (They are mostly random)
1) Jennah
2) Danny
3) Laura
4) Nabilah
5) Masyitah
6) Yi Lin
7) Asyraf
8) Khai
Would You Kiss #1?: Been there , done that ,
Have you ever cried on #2's shoulder?: Jyeah .
If you were happy, would #3 put you down?: HA , never .
Does #4 make you laugh?: DUHH !
Would #5 stay up all night with you?: Jyeah , I think .
Do you talk to #6 often?: Almost every day !
Last time you saw #7?: Yesterday .
If #8 was crying, would you cheer him/her up?: DUH .

Questions You've Heard Before
How old are you?: 16 .
What time is it?: 7:57 pm
Your best friend's name(s)?: I can't list all .
Do you have more guy or girl friends?: GUYS .
Can you sing?: Guess so .
Do you dance?: Nahh .
Have you ever stayed up all night?: DUHH .
Have you ever slept under the stars?: Jyeah .
Do you like taking walks in the rain?: Jyeah .
Do you play an instrument?: HELL YEAH .
Are you emo/gothic/punk?: Jyeah .
What make-up do you wear on a regular basis?: Eyeliner , mascara , lipbalm .

Have You Ever
Cut yourself?: Used to .
Spent more than eight hours on the computer at once?: Jyeah .
Played video games till the sun came up?: HELL YEAH ; GUITAR HERO !
Put your heart on the line?: Maybe .
Told someone the story of your life?: Not really .
Eaten calf brains?: UM no ?
Seen the Statue of Liberty?: Pictures ?
Swam in the ocean?: No .
Held a baby farm animal?: Think so .

More Random!
Is there anyone that knows /everything/ there is to know about you?: I think not .
Is there something you want to say/ask someone?: Jyeah .
Can you make any odd sounds with your mouth?: HAHA SURE !
What's the last thing you said out loud?: Put all the booze there kthx .
Do you have a cat?: Nahh .
Have you ever fallen backwards on a chair?: Jyeah .
Have you ever had a movie party?: Nahh .

Favorite
Song?: AC/DC - Highway To Hell
Band?: LOTS .
Book?: Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel
Movie?: Finding Nemo
Place?: LOTS .
Thing to do on weekends?: Anything except for tuition .
Season?: Fall .
Day of the week?: MEEP .
Holiday?: Walpurgisnacht , thought it's not an official holiday ?
Word?: WHEAU WHEAU WHEAUUU ~
Website?: LOTS .
Sport?: Soccer ?
Instrument?: Piano , guitar && drums .

Current
What do you hear?: Thumping music .
Are you talking to anyone?: Jennah ?
Do you have a headache?: Not really .
Are you sad?: Not at the moment .
What are you worried about?: Something .
Are you bored?: Not really .
What do you intend to do after this survey?: Watch wrestling ?
How many windows do you have open?: 2
What are they?: This , PLAYLIST .
Are you logged into an instant messanger?: Jyeah , MSN .
Are you cold?: NO .
Are you drinking?: Jyeah , beer ?

About This Survey
Did you enjoy it?: Skip .
Did it cure your boredom?: Skip .
What was your favorite question?: ._.
Would you try any of my other surveys?: Skip .
Were you multi-tasking while taking this?: Jyeah .

Before We Say Goodbye
Are you wearing jeans?: No .
Any plans for tomorrow?: I think so .
Do you want chocolate?: Not now .
Pie or Cake?: Depends .
Are your top friends all very dear to you?: ._.
Are you against gay marriage?: HELL NO .
Should George W. Bush burn in hell?: Skip .
Should I be president?: .________________________.
Do you have a song stuck in your head?: Jyeah ,
Are you singing it now?: ;___;
Is your music library playing?: Jyeah .
Where is your mom?: Work ?
Do you have any siblings?: Jyeah .
Are you bored with this survey?: -_-'''

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?Monday, July 27, 2009

I think I miss being alone ,
in my own world .
I guess ,
when I was still that nerdo looser
in the older days ,
I didn't have much to lose .
I was happy .
Actually happy .
The kind where it hurts cause I'm
just too happy to give a shit .
And I didn't have much then .
Now .
I have more .
I have what I want .
But I feel so empty inside .
I don't feel happy .
I'm destroying myself .
Self - mutilation ,
Booze ,
Cigarette ,
Starvation .
Sometimes I don't even know what I do to myself .
I stay awake at night ,
thinking of everything that went wrong .
I used to have a close friend .
A guy I trusted in .
He was unlike any of my other friends .
You know .
the kind of friend who's just THAT special
to you alone .
Then something went wrong .
Between the calls and smses and songs ,
something just changed .
And he left without saying goodbye .
Without any idea of how much I'd learnt from him .
I still see him now and then .
But it's just different .
I miss him .
But he doesn't have any idea .

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?Friday, July 24, 2009

this post is available courtesy of raymie's lappy .
DIDI , DIDI .
i'm already here at PARIS * clears throat * waiting for the rest of the guys to head down here .
and i'm just chilling here with danny and raymie and fuad .
and i'm supposed to be completing my maths tuition homework !
DIDI YOU MUST FOCUS !
oh whelllllllllllllllllllllllll .
WAS IMMER !
kay the guys are here .
BYE .

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?Friday, July 17, 2009

Today was a weird day .
LOL .
I was chatting with Mr Crotch Grabber online just now , and he cracked me up really bad , causing me to drop my push pop on the floor .
IT BROKE . T.T
I hope I cleaned it up okayy .
I don't want any ants to come looking for me .
LOL .
Anyway , I was talking to Laura today about the sms she sent to Jennah Syg .
" She feels more comfortatable being her emo kid in one corner in class.. But she's always observing nearly everyone.. They just dont notice it at all.. Its so hard to catch her watching your movements.. I swear she hides her eyes so well.. "
So I was kinda asking her what she meant about that .
Then we talked about the feelings we got when we looked into one another's eye .
And Masyitah said that my eyes looked scary .
LOL .
Then I asked her what she meant and apparently , she doesn't know but whenever she looks directly into my eye , a shiver runs down her spine .
WEIRD .
That's what almost everyone says about my eyes .
Nice but scary .
:P
HAHA .
I wanna post pictures today .

So here you go .
Our muker smemeks .
;DD

HAHA .
That's all folks .
See you the next time I update .
;D

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?Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Tagged by: DANNY . ;D
Next to do this: Qayyum . ;D

A
- Available: Depends on how you look at it .
- Age: SIXTEEN in THREE months .
- Annoyance: 9.999/10 ? HAHA !
- Animal: UNICORNS ! ;D
B
- Beer: Socially .
- Birthday: 09101993 , translates as Nine October One Nine Nine Three .
- Best friends: They know who they are ! ;D
- Body Part on opposite sex: Eyes .
- Best feeling in the world: BEING IN LOVE ! ;D
- Been in love: * shrugs *
- Believe in Santa: NO , duh .

C
- Color: Black , Red .
- Cannabis: Nope .
- Continent to visit: * shrugs *
- Cigarettes: Yea .

D
- Day or Night: NYTES !
- Dancing in the rain: Love it .

E
- Eyes: Black - brown .
- Everyone's got: their secret sorrows that they call upon when they are alone . HAHAHA .
- Ever failed a class: Try 5 for 2009 MYE ?

F
- First thoughts waking up: " WHYY ? I was about to .. * deflates * "
- Food: <3>

G
- Greatest Fear: SKIP .
- Goals: TO CONQUER THE WORLD . * evil grin *
- Gum: Anything MINT .
- Get along with your parents? Not really .

H
- Hair Color: Naturally brown - black .
- Height: 142.8 cm .
- Happy: More like HYPER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Holiday: * meep *

I
- Ice Cream: Anything with mint , chocolate and nuts .
- Instrument: Guitar , piano , learning drums .

J
- Jewelry: Gummy bracelets ?
- Job: Student . DUH ._.

K
- Kids: I don't have any ?
- Kickboxing or karate: Muay Thai .
- Keep a journal: Does a blog count ?

L
- Love: A certain someone ?
- Letter: ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ .
- Laughed so hard till you cried: ROFLMAO .

M
- Movies: Anything .
- McD’s or BK: McDee !
- Number: 69 . LOL . No laa . It's 9 . NINE .
- Name: Mardhiyah . Di . Short One .

O
- One wish: I want him to know that no matter what , I will love him .

P
- Perfect Pizza: Chikinhamanchovies with LOTSA CHEESE . ALL KINDS OF CHEESE .
- Pepsi/Coke: Coke .

Q
- Quail: * confused face * As in the quail egg or the birdie or what ?

R
- Reason to cry: EMOSHIT LA .
- Reality T.V.: Uhm , SKIP .
- Radio Station: Symphony 92 . 4 . ;D
- Roll your tongue in a circle: * live demonstration *
- Ring size: Tiny laa .

S
- Songs: A LOTT . From old - school metal to death metal to indie to emo to screamo to crunkcore to rapcore to grunge to psychedelic to guitar solos . ;DD
- Shoe size: 3 . Or 33 . IDK which one you want .
- Salad Dressing: MAYONNAISE && THOUSAND ISLAND .
- Sushi: Can't live without it .
- Skinny dipped?: Yerps .
- In the shower: Green Sunsilk Shampoo && Yellow Sunsilk conditioner && Johnson's Kids 2in1 Blueberry Shampoo Conditioner && Lux Silky Liquid Soap thingy .
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries .

T
- Tattoos: SKIP .
- Time for bed: I choose 'em .
- Thunderstorms: Love the rain , hate the thunder .

U
- Unpredictable: Think so ?

V
- Virginity: Ya ?

W
- Weakness: Getting tickled .
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: LAURA WEE ._.
- Who makes you laugh the most: DANNY !
- Worst feeling: Being unappreciated .
- Wanted to be a model: Nope .
- Worst Weather: ??

X
- X-Rays: No .

Y
- Year it is now: 2009 .

Z
- Zoo animal: superflythingyunicornelephanto !

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? Nenek ?
2. You went to the mall with? Jennah .
3. You went to dinner with? Jennah , Danny .
4. You talked to on the phone? Jennah .
5. Made you laugh? Danny .
6. Hugged you? Jennah .
7. Said they loved you? HAHA . * meep *
8. Held your hand? Raymie . LOL .
9. You spoke with? Raymie .
10. You cried over? * scrunches face * I don't wanna mention his name .

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?Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I know I haven't been updating due to a multitude of excuses too pathetic to be considered , so I'll try to do it today , while having a conversation with Qayyum .
;D

SO .
1ONE ;
I GOT A STALKER .
Wokay 'nuff said .

2TWO;
I applied for DPA .
ONE ; NYP - Psychology & Community Services
TWO ; TP - Communication & Media Management
THREE ; TP - Psychology Studies

3THREE ;
SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS .

KTHX .

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?Thursday, June 11, 2009

I have lots of stuff to say but I don't want to update .
KI knows why .
Ask him if you want thx .

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?Thursday, June 04, 2009

I must admit I have been very slack .
Not only for school , but for band .
I've been missing jams ,
I'm not practising my songs ,
I'm not practising my growls .
All the things you'd be expecting me to do because I'm practically doing nothing .
Instead , all I do now is to stare morosely at my textbook or notebook .
I don't pick up my guitar to play a few riffs or stuff ,
I'm not eating well ,
I'm sleeping irregularly ,
I'm been overly dramatic or eerily silent .
I don't know what is wrong with me .
It occured to khai that I could probably have dsythymia ,
but it's highly impossible .
Or is it ?
My poor bandmate has been extremely concerned for me .
He thinks I'm a danger to myself , he's never left my side until he really thought that I was fine .
I really appreciate his presence .
He's been there through all my highs and lows .
I've puked on him when I was too drunk , but he was always there when I passed out .
I've punched him when I was drunk and looking at him reminded me of a certain heartbreaker , but he'd just let my blows rain on him .
I know it's mostly because I punch horribly and I know it doesn't hurt him that much , but I know he doesn't direct me to the punching bag because he doesn't want me to hurt myself any more.
He was there when I slashed , and coaxed me into giving him the blade I was holding on to .
And I know many people might read this and think ,
" HELL , what a desperate , screwed - up girl she is . She needs help . Why is this guy even with her and helping her , man ? "

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?Monday, May 18, 2009

" Behind every beautiful thing there is some kind of pain. " - Bob Dylan

Heya all you people out there ,
I'm sorry for not reviving my blog earlier on ,
but I was just SWAMPED with exams and loadsa stuff to actually TRY to revive this thing .
So I promise this will be a MAJOR UPDATE kays ?

1 I've Been Attracting All Sorts Of People
Like PFFT .
Everyone seems to like something about me .
From people to random people to strangers !
Say I'm pretty and all sorts of shits !
PLUS , an INFLUX of guys have been adding me on MSN and PROCLAIMING their LOVE for me .
LIKE EWW .
OKAY 'NUFF SAID .

2 I've Not Been Studying
Yeah , I've been a naughty grrl . :D

The picture says it all .
Not going to explain , if you get it , you get it .

Going to be edited and re-posted due to time constraints.
TOODLES ~

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?Monday, May 04, 2009

dear baby boy,
you can keep up with this pretension,
but i'm not going to pretend anymore.
i think it's pretty obvious that this ain't going nowhere.
love,
your baby girl.

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?Saturday, April 25, 2009

"The person that you hurt the most will always stand by you in whatever they do and give you all they've got; even when all they've got left is tears, if it is true love.
And, if they can get through all the pain, and still love you just as much, then I guess that means what's meant to be will be, and nothing can ever tear that love apart."

AND,
To the person whom I irritated like shit yesterday after she was gone,
THANK YOU.
Because if you hadn't listened to all my nonsense and just put up with me,
I would just have picked up my blade and do something stupid.
So THANK YOU.
You saved me.

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?Thursday, April 23, 2009

PLEASE DO NOT EVEN ATTEMPT TO TALK TO ME.
I CAN'T TAKE THIS HEARTACHE ANYMORE.
I NEED TO MOVE ON.
THANK YOU.

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?Monday, April 20, 2009

i was hyperactive today,
like some freak-o energizer bunny-slash-kid.
which is BAD.
haha,
i'm forgivennnnnnnnnnnn~
thankyou asyraf!
hahaha.
okay,
i gotta go.
BYE~~~

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?Wednesday, April 15, 2009

firstly,
THAAANK YOU KHAIRIL FOR SMASHING MY ANKLE ON THE STEP WITH FARAH'S FRENCH HORN CASE. IT'S GREEEEEEEEATLY APPRECIATED. AND NO, YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY YOU'RE WELCOME.

secondly,
tell me how i should interpret this.

This is to you.
This is to you, his best friend.
The girl who puts up with more taunting, teasing, and endless torture that she ever should because she knows he teases the people he loves the most.
This is to you, the girl he always calls first to tell about his big news or just to talk to someone about the latest episode of Lost, even though he knows you dont care, but youll listen.
This is to you, who picks him up at any hour, at any place, when he gets into another fight with his parents, and he knows you'll drop everything to go and get him.
This is to you, one of the guys.
The one who laughs when they tell you they sometimes forget you're a girl, or when they create new nicknames for you that aren't cute, but mean something relating to you being a whore or a slut.
This is to you, the girl who was there when there was too much alcohol and too much loneliness in the room that night and things got carried away.
The girl who spent the next week hiding from her parents with hickeys on her neck.
The girl who never asked you about what happened and just accepted that you didn't want anything more than that night, though that might have been just what she wanted.
This is to you, who shells out endless amounts of $ that you really cant afford.
This is to you, when you realize his best friends have become yours.
This is you who set up those dates for him with your cute friends when a piece of you is actually jealous.
And to you again, when you are the one who helps him through his relationship with all of those girls.
This is to you, the girl who hears everything that people say about you two, and this is to you again, the girl who chooses to ignore everything they say.
This is to you, the girl who never thought she would say the sentence "No, were just friend so many times in her life.
This is to you.

it reminds me of [insert name here]'s story.
i won't put up their real names since they are both lurkers here,
and since she still likes him and he doesn't know it.
she knows who i'm talking about. (:
DAWN is the girl and MATT is the guy.
LIKE DUHHHHHHHHHHH.

dawn and matt are classmates, and dawn likes matt. one day, they just become instantaneous friends and have been very close ever since. dawn and matt have talked about LOTSSSSSSSSS of stuff and dawn knows that matt will never ever like her the way she loves him. still, she loves him and when anyone asks about what's between her and matt, she just says they're friends even thought deep down, she wants them to be more than friends. and it's been about EIGHT months and matt doesn't even have a clue.

and [insert name here] was in tears when she told me this story.
and she passed me that poem-ish thingy and said that the highlighted words in red is what she knows, what she feels.
and i told her i understood,
because yeah,
i am going through the same thing.
but my story is a little different from hers, though.
i am trying to get over him.
but it's just difficult when i see him everwhere i go,
when i see him almost everyday,
and i have to pretend that he never even existed.
i am thankful though,
that at least he's not in the same school as me.
grr.
not in the mood anymore.
UPDATE REEEEEEEEEEEAL SOON.

yeah, rrrrrrrrrrrrrrright.

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?Tuesday, April 07, 2009

She's sixteen years old.
She's not perfect; never has been, probably never will be.
She's emotional and she doesn't think about things before she says them.
Invariably,
She'll say some things that will make you want to strangle her.
She'll probably hurt you and make more mistakes than you can imagine.
She doesn't mean to, but she probably will.
However,
She will apologize.
She's still learning about everything, even if she thinks she already knows it.
She's been hurt; hurt deeply.
Sometimes she feels so alone she can hardly stand it.
Other times she's so happy she acts drunk.
She's just trying to figure out this twisted time in her life when everything gets real complicated real fast and everything seems to spin out of control before she even begins to understand whats going on.
She loves, laughs, and does her best and that's all you can ever ask of her.

Nothing much to say,
not much updates.
Just wanted to say something to someone.

"You think I really want to help you with all this shit? I'm just doing this because I'm too nice to say no. So before you shoot your big mouth off and start slagging me, stop and think. You think you're so great? Go take a look at yourself in the mirror before you start slagging me. You think you know me that well? NO. You don't. I know you better than anyone else. I have more shit on you than you have on me. So if you still want to slag me off, go ahead. Just remember, once I smear your reputation with the shit I have about you, the damage will be almost irreversible. So just stop and think."

That's all.

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?Monday, April 06, 2009

dear playa,
i didn't mean for it to turn out this way.
but i'm not going to say i'm sorry,
because there's plenty of blame to pass around.
i just regret loving you.
i just regret carving your initials in my skin,
because you didn't deserve the pain, blood or tears.
you don't deserve me at my best,
because you weren't even there for me at my worst.
and to think i loved you so much.
now it's over,
don't come crying back to me because i know what the fuck you want.
i know what i want.
and what i want is what i deserve.
and i know i deserve better.
i know i deserve -------.
because he's not like you.
i know he sincerely loves me.
so stfu and stay away from me.
because i know you too well,
playa.

LOVE,
DIDI <3

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?Tuesday, March 24, 2009

if you know who i'm talking about,
then good for you.
anyway,
i never said it was you.
but agaknya you terasa.
anyhow,
it doesn't matter anymore.

i am officially stressed.
and the shit HAS hit the fan.
well,
the good part about the shit hitting the fan is that i don't have to put up with it anymore.
but other than that,
things have gotten WAYY out of hand.
i don't want to explain,
i don't care to explain.
would you want to explain your problems to someone with SILLICONE BOOBS?
i sure wouldn't.
i wonder how some people can ignore the fact that they have SILLICONE BOOBS and walk around jiggling them in people's faces.
especially when it gets jiggled in MY face.
but it can't be helped,
since i am short.
things get jiggled in my face.
i don't even think that she remembers that i wanted her to write me a recommendation letter.
well whatever,
JIGGLY SILLICONE BOOBS,
jiggle your boobs somewhere else.
I. AM. NOT. INTERESTED.

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?Monday, March 23, 2009

all the shit has hit the ceiling.
you must be so proud of yourself, sayang.
thank you.
you're the best abang that i could have ever had.
best off all,
i love you too.
bet you didn't know that.
hah.
now you do,
go give yourself a pat on the back or something.
rejoice while you can.
because the shit never washes off.
so who's got the last laugh now?

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?Wednesday, March 18, 2009

i have this huge-ass stomachache,
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
currently at laura's house with asyraf and yilin and of course,
LAURA.
i'm like soo bored,
and we have this malay o'level thingy at dunman tomorrow.
the best part is getting to skip drama.
the bad part is not getting to talk to siti [ ruqniah ].
haha.
we talked about lots of stuff just now,
which is like PRIVATE.
i'm like so tired and i'm feeling blaah.
yeah,
complaincomplain.
sheez,
gimme a break.
i'm just tired and whiny.
and i lost my pinkxbrown friendship band man.
haiya.
that was my favourite.
oh well,
i'm sure it'll turn up somewhere.
until then,
i'll have to make do with the greyxwhitexyellow one.
gahh.
okay,
i can't take it anymore.
i wanna go home.
kthxbai.

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