?confessions of an emokid [:
?STUDIO

I'M AN EMOKID. PEOPLE HATE ME.
? EITHER LOVE ME OR HATE ME ?.
? WILL YOU BE THE NEXT ONE TO HATE ME ?

?EMOKIDDO

My name is DIDI. Or you can call me Mardhiyah.
I'm currently 16 [2009] and I'm still as short as ever.
I'm currently in love with my darling guitar, eventhough it's not a Goth Thunderbird.
Status: SINGLE / ATTACHED

?CRAVES
& ESP KH-2 Vintage [ESP SIGNATURE SERIES: KIRK HAMMETT]
& Miss Sixty Rock Muse EDP
& Anything from the MCR Store
& Contact Lenses
& Plaid Skinnies
& At least C6 for Maths
& FLAMETHROWERR
& A new notebook

?LOVES
& JAVA CHIP FRAPPE
& The ASS&&CO gang
- Nabilah!
- Masyitah!
- Laura!
& My band [:
& Budak Slackers
& Sushi [:
& HIM

?DETESTS
& COCKROACHES && SPIDERS
& I hate the feeling that I've been screwed over.

?TUNEIN


MusicPlaylist
MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

?HEARSAYS

?PLURKY
?Saturday, December 27, 2008

Stolen From A Friendster Bulletin Since I Was Bored

ARE YOU:
►Perfect: Yeah. [Explanation given below xP]
["Nobody is perfect. I am nobody. Therefore, I am perfect."]
►Tall: Nope. 143cm?
►In your pajamas: Nope.
►Lefthanded: I'm righthanded, man.
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LAST
►Friends you saw: Masyitah, Farhan, Natasha, Winnie
►Talked to on the phone: Well.. I can't really remember.
►Person to text you: Winnie xD
►Is today better than yesterday? Pfft, no.
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FAVORITE
►Number: 9 [enn.ayy.enn.ee]
►Color: Black/Grey/Red
►Food: Sushi! And lotsa other stuff.
►Place: A swing. As in literally a swing on the playground.
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QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did
this morning when you got up?
► Seached for my handphone and went into the toilet with it xP
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
► Of Course. DUH ._.
Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters ?
► Let's see.. THE BEE MOVIE.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
► The bazaar thingy at the void deck.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
► I suppose. Do fake smiles count?
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
► Sometimes. But there aren't many visible stars in Singapore, are there?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
► Depends. Usually yeah (:
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
► In my room.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
► Because that's my room?
Q: When was the last time you cried?
► A pretty long time ago.
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep ?
► I won't have a late-night snack tonight, cause I'm gonna grow FAAT!
[And guess what? I had one.]
Q: Rate life as of right now, one
being bad, ten being great?
► 4, It pretty much suckd.
Q: What do you hear right now?
► Warmness On The Soul - Avenged Sevenfold
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
► Yeah. My arm.
Q: What's your favorite month?
► Next March. I told my mum do or die must rebond my hair during the one week hols.
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EMOTIONS :
Are you missing someone right now?
► YEAH! Ever since forever.
Are you single?
► Yeah.
Are you tired?
► Kinda.
Are your parents still married
► OF COURSE ASSHOLE.
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BASICS :
►Real name: Mardhiyah.
►Nick Name: Didi.
►Age: 16 [Let's just consider it 2009, shall we?]
►Eye color: Blackish-brown with black being more prominent.
►Male or female: Female
►Single: Yeah.
►Crushing: Yeah. But I can't tell (:
►Smart: Are you kidding? I'm a retard!
►Hair color: Brown-black, currently dyed medium brown (:
►Sweats or Jeans: SKINNIES! Bondage pants work too.
►Phone or Camera: Both! I'd die without them.
►Health freak: Pfft. Hell no.
►Righty or lefty: Righty (:
►Smoke or Drink: Social drinker.
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FIRSTS :
►First best friend: Sumiyati (:
►First award: Some academic award for school when I was P3.
►First enemy: Easy. But can't tell ya.
►First pet: None. Damn allergies.
►First vacation : KL.
CURRENTLY:
►Eating: Nothing.
►Drinking: Nothing.
►Listening to: Baphomet Throne Exaltion - Black Witchery
►Plans for tomorrow: Practise songs on the guitar?
►Waiting for: Friday! School re-open.
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WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
GENDER:
►Lips or eyes: Eyes. But nice lips to kiss is nice too. Hrm..
►Shorter or taller: Taller, duh !
►Romantic or spontaneous: Both (:
►Sensitive or loud: Depends.
►Hook-up or in a relationship: Depends.
=======================================
HAVE YOU EVER:
►Drank hard drinks: Once.
►Lost glasses/contacts: Yeah! And got helluva scolding from my mum.
►Ran away from home: Nope.
►Broken someone's heart: Yeah!
►Been arrested: I'm a good girl, I'm telling you.
===================================
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
►Do you like someone: DUH ._.
►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: Not really.

Finally done.
Haha, victims :
- Alie
- Winnie
- Sara
TAGGED!


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?Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I AM SO SLEEPY.
I know I should probably start sleeping early to adjust my body to waking up early.
but I can't.
I.
Have.
No.
Idea.
Why.
Not.
It's so frustrating.
And my right eye hurts.
):
IDKwhy.

*thinks*
OH YA!
I promised you guys the story about me, Natasha, Aaron and his brother.
But I'm too lazy to type it out.
I promise I'll scan my notebook and post it here.
I PROMISE.
Okay.
Now I'm going to look for tabs so bye~


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?Friday, December 19, 2008

Why does school have to re-open so quickly?
And on a FRIDAY at that.
):
Hello?!
It's just one day.
O-N-E.
1.
It won't kill you people to re-open school on MONDAY right?
And Sec 4.
O Level madness.
Damn.
I think I'll be super stressed next year.
And with SOME people bugging me and refusing to leave me alone..
*sighs*
It's gonna be a tough year ahead.


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?Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Yesterday me and Masyitah met up to chiong homework, and Farhan helped me change the strings on my baby. Some pictures I took while taking a break from homework.

Masyitah suddenly looking up mid-snap xD

Farhan hard at work with a super messy table.
[Technically speaking, he threw all the strings on the table.]

Another mid-snap moment (:

Farhan tuning my baby, then looking sleng-ly at the camera for idk what reason xD

Farhan was laame.
When me and Masyitah dah sampai, he still wasn't there, so we decided to wait for him.
Then I smsed and stuff, then he said that he was still waiting for the guitaar shop to open.
Then we waited till 11, then decided to head under one of the blocks to start on our homework while waiting for him.
Then he smsed to say that the shop opened at 12, so I invited him over first.
blablabla.
Then he came and blablabla and decided to sleep, and told us to wake him up at 11.30.
Then me and Masyitah exchanged some "smses" and laughed loudly, kinda startling him.
I will not reproduce them here because Farhan might get to read them and get mad at us.
Then my phone sms alert came and that woke farhan up again, but this time, he stared at his phone, only to find that it was my phone.
he was like "wthell? samer?" and went back to sleep.
Then at around 11.31 I woke him up, and then he made his way to afghan to the store to buy them.
Fast forward to alotof things and then I came home.
But the best part's not up yet.
I'll leave it for a later post,
but do catch it!
It's really funny, imo.
Includes me, Natasha, Aaron and his younger brother.
Includes racuous laughter and pathetic attempts at macho-ness.
Watch this space for details.
(:

FREAKY GEEKY~


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?Thursday, December 11, 2008

Got tagged to do this quiz thingy by Alie.
Here goes nothing.

Have you ever thought of getting your lip pierced?
- DUH. I think I still kinda want to get it pierced, but it depends.

Have you thought about getting a tattoo?
- Yeapps. I had a few and it faded to shit. UGH. But I didn't regret getting it.

Does a kiss make you feel better?
- Depends.

Does a hug make you feel better?
- Definitely. I LOVE hugs.

Exactly what makes you feel better?
- I can't say for sure. It depends.

What did you do today?
- Bloghopped, updated this blog and currently talking to NAZ (:

Do you think any of your friends can be good boyfriends/girlfriends?
- Most would, but I'm not sure about the ASS&Co chicas though. I don't think any of them have/had bfs except for me. But I DO know that they are very nice people (:

Have you had more then 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
- No. I'm definitely faithful.

Have you ever thought about your death?
- Definitely. I guess everyone wants to die pretty but I think I would want to blow my brains out or die in a car crash. Or die saving my beloved. Haha (:

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
- Depends. If the guy is abusive or what I'd rather stay single. But in normal cases I'd definitely love to have a permanent/long-lasting relationship.

What is the colour of your room curtains?
- Translucent white. They're those day curtains thingy.

Have you ever had stitches?
- Nahhs.

Do you know how to use chopsticks?
- Yeah I know how to wield those fricking things. I can pick up peanuts and other tiny items with those things.

Lyrics stuck in your head?
- BFMV's Tears Don't Fall
The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

What will you be doing tomorrow?
- I'm not sure. Maybe watch Unforgiven 2008?

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?
- I'd say Fahrin, my long-time neighbour in KL. He's not nerdy anymore!

Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
- Out of my own pocket, not really, unless you consider giving a huge guy who's threatening you money.

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
- Yeah, and it totally turned me off peanut butter.

What are you doing right at this moment?
- Completing this thingy, surfing PRD [punkrockdomestics] and Googling stuff.

Where's your favourite place to be?
- On the swing on a rainy day or at Starbucks buying a frappe.

What's your favourite song?
- Plenty to go around. Haha (:

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
- COFFEE! It makes me all hyper and focused. Alcohol doesn't really rock my boat. But I only tried it once, so I'm not really sure.

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
- What, and get scolded by my parents? All the phones with wires are near televisions. Besides, I love cordless phones more.

Have you ever been skinny-dipping?
- Yeapps. No, I think.

Have you ever been arrested?
- No way. I'm a good citizen.

Do you dream in black and white?
- Hrm. Not really. Mostly in full colour and HD.

Do you talk in your sleep?
- Not very sure. According to my grandma, I do. Scary.

Are you a redneck?
- No. I'm not from Texas.

What are you afraid of?
- Spiders, cockroaches.

And to the IDIOT.
[You know who you are.]
Yeah,
you may have trampled on my heart,
but I don't care anymore.
I've got better things to do then to be "pining for you" and "lovesick",
according to you.
It ended the day we broke up.
Don't ever come looking for me again.
If you dare disturb me or the others,
I swear I will hunt you down and skin you.
And so far I haven't broken any promises or swears.


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?Friday, December 05, 2008

1moredaytilligokl.
Yeah people.
I'll be MIA till idk when.
I wanna get some silence when I come back anyway.
So most prolly I'm muting.
Yeah.
That's right.
Unbelievably,
I'M MUTING.
So rejoice, all you Didi haters out there.
That done.
Oh yeah, Danny.
I heard about how Alie busted your tyre.
HAHA!
And you wanna teach me how to ride?
Alie has a pretty good sense of balance, tbh, it.
I AM SHIT AT BALANCING.
So if you really don't mind me screwing up your bike once and for all, you're welcome to teach me.
Haha (:

That'sallfornow.
If anyone bothers to read this shit and wants me to talk or whatever,
you know how to find me.
If you don't, don't bother.


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?Thursday, December 04, 2008

WHY must the maths homework die on me when I have to print it?
Bleargh.
Anyway.

2moredaystillIleavethishellhole.
Finally.
I can't wait anymore.
EVERYTHING here is driving me crazy.
it's madness everywhere.

And my darling guitar?
THANKS for snapping a string when I had to try out a new song.
WHY?
I was gonna show off to my aunts and uncles back in KL.
And now you RUINED it.
I hate you a little now.
*storms off*


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?Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Simple Plan - Save You

Take a breath I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

Ooh Ooh
I wish that I could tell you something
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know that

If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

DIDI's favourite song at the moment [:


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?Tuesday, December 02, 2008

About 4 more days to the big KL trip where I'm finally free.
Lame, I know.
But yeah.
So currently here's what I'm planning to get there.

- Dress
[I know I'm not a dress/girly person, so I have no idea why I want them.]
- Flats
[I NEED new flats, dammit!]
- Some misc. items

I was just looking through the Demonia site and I am in LOVE with their flats.
They have some rad combat boots too, but they are all so expensive.
Blaah.
I'll just pine for their flats, cause those are of my main concern.
Haha (:
OMG.
Their unisex pumps are HOT.
All you goth/punk people, go shoo and take a look at their stuff.
I know they are mostly female, but they have preety good unisex stuff too.
[No one reads this so I'm just talking to myself, huh?]

DANNY YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT!!

And as your adeq I demand them now.
Haha!
I'll decide on something and tell you later.
xD


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