?confessions of an emokid [:
?STUDIO

I'M AN EMOKID. PEOPLE HATE ME.
? EITHER LOVE ME OR HATE ME ?.
? WILL YOU BE THE NEXT ONE TO HATE ME ?

?EMOKIDDO

My name is DIDI. Or you can call me Mardhiyah.
I'm currently 16 [2009] and I'm still as short as ever.
I'm currently in love with my darling guitar, eventhough it's not a Goth Thunderbird.
Status: SINGLE / ATTACHED

?CRAVES
& ESP KH-2 Vintage [ESP SIGNATURE SERIES: KIRK HAMMETT]
& Miss Sixty Rock Muse EDP
& Anything from the MCR Store
& Contact Lenses
& Plaid Skinnies
& At least C6 for Maths
& FLAMETHROWERR
& A new notebook

?LOVES
& JAVA CHIP FRAPPE
& The ASS&&CO gang
- Nabilah!
- Masyitah!
- Laura!
& My band [:
& Budak Slackers
& Sushi [:
& HIM

?DETESTS
& COCKROACHES && SPIDERS
& I hate the feeling that I've been screwed over.

?TUNEIN


MusicPlaylist
MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

?HEARSAYS

?PLURKY
?Monday, June 30, 2008

I really love HelveteBoy for his courage.
[A/N: Even though I am HelveteGirl, that does not make me HelveteBoy's girlfriend. I am his friend,who just happens to be a girl. He used to be really tight with Haziq/Ziqq, but after this incident, we are no longer close to Haziq[thehomophobicass] anymore.]

Saturday night, I was about to sleep to the headbanging music of BlackMetal, when HelveteBoy called me, at around 1.45am.

HelveteBoy: Darling, are you asleep yet?
HelveteGirl: Well, I was about to fall asleep.
HelveteBoy: Can I ask you a question? Well, two actually...
HelveteGirl: Yeah, well, go on.
HelveteBoy: What would you do if someone you know tells you he's gay? And can we meet up tomorrow?
HelveteGirl: Can we discuss this tomorrow, sweetie? I'm really sleepy...

The next day at ???

HelveteBoy: So, if someone told you he was gay, what would you do?
HelveteGirl: Give him a big hug. *hugs HelveteBoy*
HelveteBoy: But... But...
HelveteGirl: I know. Ziqq told me.
HelveteBoy: So you're not afraid of gays or homophobic or anything?
HelveteGirl: Do you want me to?
HelveteBoy: Nononono. I just want to thank you.
HelveteGirl: Thank me? Um, why?
HelveteBoy: When I told my "best friends", they shunned me like I was the plague. Even Haziq did the same thing. You were the first one to accept me for who I am.
HelveteGirl: Sayang. You need a tissue, or another hug, or both?
HelveteBoy: *suddenly grabs HelveteGirl and gives her a big,tight hug*
HelveteGirl: Aww, come on, emo boy. Let's jam at your house.

And so we spent the afternoon at his house growling along to BlackMetal and doing some hardcore drumming.
[A/N: Technically speaking, HelveteBoy was the one doing the hardcore drumming. I just bashed some random beats and played the whole song of "Welcome To The Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance. And yes, Kitty, I can play the whole song.]


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?Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Sillysilly me.
I was thinking that over the year-end hols,I wanted to dye my hair.
Then you know how Watsons has this offer on hair dye where like 2 boxes are $15.90.
Then I was thinking to myself;

DD Presents,Her Thoughts.
[In Black&White]

I want to buy 2 boxes la;light brown and black.
Not bad what,pretty hua suan [reasonable] ma.
Anyway,my mother know liao ma. She won't kill me.
Hmm...
Might get coontails.
*smiles*
Wait!
If bleach my hair...
Nice man...
Especially if can get those blondewhite,sibeh [very] nice man...
Not bad...
Maybe should do that...
Okay then.
Buy the bleach and black...

FIVE MINUTES LATER;

OH YA!
Damn!
If bleach,then you cannot redye black!!
It won't stick nia!
*ponders*
Crap!
Hmm,maybe can say I was washing my clothes then my hair kena Chlorox...
*grins*
But cannot be my WHOLE hair kena Chlorox ma...
Hmm...
"Chlorox" coontails?
Okay,that sucks.
Damn.
So can only get light brown and black...
*thinks*
"Chlorox" tips?
Nahhs.
If any of the teachers read my blog...
*imagines*
Okay!!!!
Cannot!!!!!
Damn.
Stuck with boring natural colours.
Cause if I want to do streaks I'll have to go that [tmart] shop.
And the dye is permanent.
AND $7.90.

End Of Thoughts

So ya,I'll be buying lightbrown&black.
Btw,anyone want to dye their hair brown?
Because Masyitah&I always end up using only half and throwing away half.
Very wasted.

MUST REMEMBER NOT TO CUT HAIR TILL END OF YEAR!!!


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?Thursday, June 05, 2008

Okay.
I want to cut my hair.
I told Rahmat I wanted a mohawk.
WHICH I DO.
But he said
"mohawk?
nah..
not nice..
mullet
nicer
keep a fringe and tell the barber not to cut your back to thin
spike the back and do the fringe"
After considering scene hair and we both agree-ing that I am fickle and some conversation, I said;
"psh
oh-kay
i want to look like i've matured
lol
such irony
but i still want my hair to be fun
NO BOBS"
Then;
"hmm
how should i cut it???!!!!"
And he said;
"its ur choice..'
So i asked;
"gahhs
okay
any suggestions i can like try?
if it's shit i won't balme you
blame*
cause i WANT your suggestion"
because most of the times my choices are shit.
Not for my current one,anyways.
So he said;
"mullet"
So i said;
"ok
then i'll have to grow it
WAIT
shoulder lenght is okay for a mullet right"
And the answer was...
"yeah"
So yay,then I told him;
"okay
when i've grown my hair you are coming with me to cut it"
And so he says;
"aite.
no probs right there"
So yea,when my hair is long enough,I'll drag Rahmat and we'll go to Supercuts.
And I am now having a very random conversation with Kitty.
And so I'll post this so Rahmat can read and tag my blog ((:


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