?confessions of an emokid [:

?Tuesday, March 24, 2009

if you know who i'm talking about,
then good for you.
anyway,
i never said it was you.
but agaknya you terasa.
anyhow,
it doesn't matter anymore.

i am officially stressed.
and the shit HAS hit the fan.
well,
the good part about the shit hitting the fan is that i don't have to put up with it anymore.
but other than that,
things have gotten WAYY out of hand.
i don't want to explain,
i don't care to explain.
would you want to explain your problems to someone with SILLICONE BOOBS?
i sure wouldn't.
i wonder how some people can ignore the fact that they have SILLICONE BOOBS and walk around jiggling them in people's faces.
especially when it gets jiggled in MY face.
but it can't be helped,
since i am short.
things get jiggled in my face.
i don't even think that she remembers that i wanted her to write me a recommendation letter.
well whatever,
JIGGLY SILLICONE BOOBS,
jiggle your boobs somewhere else.
I. AM. NOT. INTERESTED.

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?Monday, March 23, 2009

all the shit has hit the ceiling.
you must be so proud of yourself, sayang.
thank you.
you're the best abang that i could have ever had.
best off all,
i love you too.
bet you didn't know that.
hah.
now you do,
go give yourself a pat on the back or something.
rejoice while you can.
because the shit never washes off.
so who's got the last laugh now?

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?Wednesday, March 18, 2009

i have this huge-ass stomachache,
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
currently at laura's house with asyraf and yilin and of course,
LAURA.
i'm like soo bored,
and we have this malay o'level thingy at dunman tomorrow.
the best part is getting to skip drama.
the bad part is not getting to talk to siti [ ruqniah ].
haha.
we talked about lots of stuff just now,
which is like PRIVATE.
i'm like so tired and i'm feeling blaah.
yeah,
complaincomplain.
sheez,
gimme a break.
i'm just tired and whiny.
and i lost my pinkxbrown friendship band man.
haiya.
that was my favourite.
oh well,
i'm sure it'll turn up somewhere.
until then,
i'll have to make do with the greyxwhitexyellow one.
gahh.
okay,
i can't take it anymore.
i wanna go home.
kthxbai.

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?Monday, March 16, 2009

I AM NOT SOME MINAH WHO WANTS A HOOK-UP,
SO STOP SMSING ME.
I AM NOT INTERESTED!

thankyou ZAHID and SULIANA for letting me rant.
<3333333333
really appreciated.
and to the person who gave out my number freely,
THANKS A LOT.
but honestly,
i am not interested at all.
i pity you, though.
you stooped soooooooooooo low just to get back at me.
WOW.
you sure are "mature".

ENOUGH WASTED ON THAT.
i will not let immature people get to me.
okay someone slap me!
i am obsessed with BFMV!
gahhs.

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?Thursday, March 12, 2009

WARNING.
extremely boring post.

haiyaiyaiyai.
STUPID GREEN CONTACTS!!
cannot stick into my eyes ._.
pfft.
i was so freaking tired && pissed after our CJC rehearsal yesterday.
lagi-lagi in the morning i almost fainted pasal tak makan.
sorry drama people,
but at the rate we're going,
we DO NOT even deserve a COP.
all of you are not serious.
AT ALL.
me && ken walked to the bus stop together and i was feeling really crappy,
like i had a fever.
and it was about 8 when i reached home,
then i rested for awhile and tried to concentrate on my work,
but couldn't.
then i spent about 2 damn hours trying to stick the damned contacts into my eyes,
but failed.
then i smsed for awhile and then plonked dead on my bed.
then my alarm clock woke me up and i was feeling super cold despite being selubung-ed like wtf,
so i woke up and told mama then i didn't wanna go school.
then she "mm." so i went back into bed,
looked for the thermometer and checked temperature.
37.7 degrees.
WOW.
so i smsed laura and abby and went back to sleep until i woke up at like 11plus.
received sms from khai reminding me about his fever.
replied him back telling him i wasn't at school today.
blablabla.
now i'm gonna edit the camwhore pictures i took in the bus,
and later i'm gonna try to put on those contacts again.
so yeah.
bye.

p.s oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, where are you guys? i want my dictionary and homework man.

I TOLD YOU IT WAS GONNA BE A BORING POST.

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?Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I was super hyper in school today :D
DUE TO:
[x] that 1T1 girl not zipping up her skirt
[ ] not remembering my lines
[x] getting to smell his perfume early in the morning
[x] SULIANAAAAAAAAAAA being back!
[ ] my push-pop that was stuck
[x] being happy that i am 5bucks away from my greeeeeeeeeeen contacts :DDD
[x] the fact that i was listening to bfmv's "say goodbye on repeat" :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ahh whatever.
i'm gonna edit pictures.
byebye~

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?Monday, March 09, 2009

Honestly CASPER, I don't give a damn.
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3/9/2009	9:05:56 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	MUDDY AH! ; unimpressed by liars, do try harder.	whtever..
3/9/2009	9:06:03 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	MUDDY AH! ; unimpressed by liars, do try harder.	u need 2 go out more n need therapy
3/9/2009	9:06:12 PM	MUDDY AH! ; unimpressed by liars, do try harder.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	fer what?
3/9/2009	9:06:26 PM	MUDDY AH! ; unimpressed by liars, do try harder.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'm perfectly happy with being geeky and weird.
3/9/2009	9:07:33 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	sure u r
3/9/2009	9:07:40 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	u dont go out
3/9/2009	9:07:47 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	u dont exp life
3/9/2009	9:07:55 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	ur couped up
3/9/2009	9:07:59 PM	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	im sure ur prefectly fine
3/9/2009	9:09:24 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i learn stuff out of interest. i learn how to live weirdly. i love the people who love me for who i am. i see the world differently.
3/9/2009	9:09:29 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i'm just me.
3/9/2009	9:10:00 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	i don't care if people think i'm freaky of "not normal".
3/9/2009	9:10:21 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	because they are blind.
3/9/2009	9:10:26 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	case closed.
3/9/2009	9:10:39 PM	i'maneccentric,artsyperson,youcan'tblameme.	if u cant beat them mite s well lead them	blocked.

you don't even know me.
And you judge me.
Sure,
you're Mister Oh-So-Perfect,
aren't you?
LKY BODYGUARD konon.
hello,
i'm sixteen.
i'm not fooled by the stupid bullshit you told me.
what about the oaths and the confidentiality breach and stuff like that?
i'm NOT stupid,
0kay?
and
" that's not binary, that's morse code. it's almost the same thing, dash = 0, dots = 1."
HAH.
am i stupid, or am i stupid?

"BINARY"
in binary is
011000100110100101101110011000010111001001111001
whereas
"BINARY"
in morse code is
-... .. -. .- .-. -.--

so who's the stupid one here?
if you don't believe me,
you can try to google the translators or something like that.
then if there's any discrepancy,
please inform me,
because i anyhow hack from memory.
heh.

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MUSIC UPDATE
Bullet For My Valentine - Say Goodbye (Acoustic)

Heaven's waiting for you
Just close your eyes
And say goodbye
Hearing your pulse
Go on and on and on

I live my life in misery
I sacrificed this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
Shattered glass keeps falling

Say....
Say goodnight
Just sleep tight
Say goodnight...

Flowers laid out for you
So many colors leave me blind
Seeing your face reflect from our babies eyes

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
Shattered glass keeps falling

Say goodnight
Just sleep tight
Say goodnight

So here I am
You're inside of me
So here I am
Our world is over
So here I am
You're inside of me
So here I am
our world is over

Here I am with you
I'm there 'til the end
Memories are calling
So farewell my friend
Farewell my friend!

Here I am with you
I'm there 'til the end
Memories are calling
So farewell my friend.

GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN contacts here I come!
ahhahas.
fifteen bucks, byebye.
i want the bluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuue one next.
YAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay.
apart from that.

I FAILED 5 SUBJECTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES.
pathetic kan?
one of them was POA.
and i got 18.
then for the other four subjects,
i got 40plus.

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?Thursday, March 05, 2009

OKAY THIS IS BORING SHIT.
BLAAH.
today's sexuality talk was boring.
pfft.
and i feel like a quote collector.
i've got like a zillion quotes now.
all about emoSHIT stuff and shit like that.
okay i am so retarded.
why i am even rambling about nonsensical stuff is quite weird.
._______.
sheez.
I AM RETARDED.
okok.
i gotta go.
bye~

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?Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Lying in my bed again
And I cry cos you're not here
Crying in my head again
And I know that it's not clear
Put your hands, put your hands
Inside my face and see that it's just you
But it's bad and it's mad
and it's making me sad
Because I can't be with you
-The Cranberries: I Can't Be With You

BLEARGH.
damned MDM SUGU.
make my life difficult by giving the part of the old lady as well.
HAIYA.
cherrrrrrr.
i must focus on my studies man.
update later.
busy chiong-ing work.
now piss off SHITHEADS.
damn the parent-teacher meeting.
i know what they're gonna say about me.
and yay to sexuality talk tomorrow
xDDDD
heh.
okay srsly.
go away now.
and yeah.
SYF!!
wah jialat.
I DAI.
okay go away.

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