?confessions of an emokid [:

?Friday, September 26, 2008

A very nice song.
Don't Jump by Tokio Hotel

Lyrics:
On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don't wanna hear it right now
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump

You open your eyes
But you can't remember what for
The snow falls quietly
You just can't feel it no more
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in your pain
You dream of the end
To start all over again

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump

I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long

Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don't jump

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you

♥
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Here's a conversation I find highly amusing.
Me against Farhana.
I think it's east to tell who's who,right?
So enjoy and LYAO.

farhana_freedom95 says:
i bother cos you fucking damn bitch!!same as LAURA
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
VOUS ÊTES UN TEL imbécile. GRAVE. Je ne sais pas pourquoi je dérange.
SIGH
Vous êtes-vous causant la misère. Pourquoi s'en inquiéter? Pas comme vous comprendrez quand même ..
And laura says you're a BAKA!!
farhana_freedom95 says:
k..tat is so watever..
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
HA! TAK FAHAM KAN? THEN SO KPO FOR WHAT SIA?
OBVIOUSLYI'M SO MUCH SMARTER THAN YOU
braggart
farhana_freedom95 says:
say to her go for fucking lessons please.!!learn how to fuck people not to TALK fuck!!sama oes to you!!!1
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
fuckers
GO WITH KHAIRIL THEN GOOODD!!!
GO d&t BLOCK
LAGI G000D
jackass
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
hahs
he already has a gf
i already have bf
why bother?
farhana_freedom95 says:
ah..
macam betul jerh..
pantat aku ah mataer kau
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
×[ ł α υ я α ™ ]× says:
ok..
tell her that you dont want someone to fuck you,
since she is the one who is using the f word so damn much and alot, she must really love having sex..
call her promiscuous if you must
and since she use fuckers, she must really like having group sex in which term im not very sure
AND YEAH
IT'S CALLED AN ORGY
farhana_freedom95 says:
say to her tat YOU are the ONE talking WITH the F word..
tell her GO hell
heaven is not the place for her!!!
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
i don't believe in heaven anyway
sigh
not like you'll understand satanism
×[ ł α υ я α ™ ]× says:
oh and add.. that if she really cant find a sex partner, there is always a place called geylang or cyber sex.. unfortunately if she doesnt have webcam then maybe she can pleasure herself =)
×[ ł α υ я α ™ ]× says:
oh.. earth is hell.. there isnt any other hell.. didnt you know that? i am so amazed.. sighs.. there isnt a heaven either.. earth is heaven in itself..

i think earth is hell, so im already in hell.. and you are here in hell with me.. sad place huh.. having you around stinks even more..
HAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HERMAPHRODITE!!
hahs
dah no response?
farhana_freedom95 says:
k..
watever.
as long as you happy ..
damn fucking bitch.
say to her..got BF i think RUN away ah..
da la..
go die ah.
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
oh yeah i'm escstatic
farhana_freedom95 says:
dsajhbdkfaf
\fshfglkhsg
rgbsjfnsd
dsfvds,bvs
vdsbvkdsj
SAY TO HER GO DIE..
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
be thankful i didn't talk in binary
farhana_freedom95 says:
k..tat is SO watever...
emo shits..
emo girl SUCKS
emoemoemo
emoemoemo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
vemo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
oh really? at least we aren't degrading ourselves further by stooping to your level.
farhana_freedom95 says:
emo
emo
watever..
emo shit girl
as long happy with tat fucking damn laura..
HURTINGINSIDE. Pleasefindawaytomakethisstop. says:
hah
i thought you slash yourself too
wonder why masyitah friend you
that time she just go diss emos and slashers
HAA!
n00b
say emos and slashers stupid
you all two faced sia
same like her
she sec2 also used to slash
FOR FUN
i influence her
she never say

But too bad she went offline.
Funny huhs?!
Too bad.
Someone with poor English and absolutely no background in French,
trying to argue senselessly with someone who knows a little French,has a good command of English and is learning binary.
I am amused.
[Je me sens tel dommage pour elle.
NON!]

♥
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?Thursday, September 25, 2008

Si le monde vous met au défi, contre-attaquer.
Si vous ressentez une douleur, grain vos dents et porter avec elle.
Parce que derrière saisis profonde douleur et l'agonie,
est l'amour.

Sigh.
I would first like to apologize to Hazwan, Farah and Nabilah.
Because my printer did its weird thing and now I'm unable to scan and print out the Literature notes [Hazwan] and the story I typed out [Farah and Nabilah].
It's the start of exams tomorrow,but..
I don't feel anything.
No stress, no fear.
Nothing.
Only sadness.
And it's not like anyone will understand anyway.
I have no one to talk to.
Even the people who supposedly "cared" for me have left me to my own devices.
At least,I have surrendered all my blades to Khai.
[But I couldn't stand it and got back one from Khai. Just the blunt,black one.]
And because it's blunt,I can't do much harm to myself.
Right?
Here is the link to TWLOHA.
[To Write Love On Her Arms]

♥
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?Tuesday, September 23, 2008

"Just fake a smile and don't let them see through the shit you're facing. Fake it till the curtains fall,till you drop dead. You'll be the world's best actor then." - Isaac

Tears gather at the corner of your eyes, threatening to spill.
Sadness swells your throat shut till you are unable to make a sound.
Anger pounding in your fragile heart.
Pain coursing through your veins.
No way of release, because all the ways will lead to your destruction.
[Someone save the mute, helpless and blind person from drowning.]
So what do you do?
[Didi-copyrighted. Please ask permission for use in any form,edited or unedited.]

I'm in so much pain.
I have no way to express myself.
No one seems to care, except for two people.
If you're reading this, you know who you are.
One girl and one boy.
I'm sorry if I let you down.
I know you guys really care, but as I've said, it's hard to love yourself when it seems like everyone doesn't give a shit.
I don't feel appreciated, I don't feel loved.
All I feel is sadness.
I'm sorry if I'm making any of you worried.
I'm trying not to do anything silly.
Not to self-destruct.

♥
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?Sunday, September 07, 2008

So you finally did it
You've set yourself free
Done with all this pain
Free of your misery
This life was too hard
That's why you had to escape
I tell myself over and over
That you had to do this
I know I am wrong
I can't fool myself
You took your life
But at the same time
You also took some of mine
You lost your pain
But I found it
I hate you for leaving
It's as simple as that
But I miss you more than ever
I wish I could help
To have said that one thing
That maybe would of saved you
But I couldn't..
And it hurts
To know that I did nothing
That I couldn't do anything

I'm sorry I let you down.
I was too weak.

Okay,on Khairil's request.
Something about him.
*sighs*
Over the school holidays,I got to know more about this one-day younger brother of mine.
[actually,i think i know too much]
His name,[again] for those of you who didn't read the first line in black,is Khairil.
He sits beside Laura in class.
[say "Hi!" to Laura]
He is a rider.
Meaning,he rides bicycles.
Of the BMX variety.
[i think i'm right]
And he's afraid of cockroaches.
Especially flying ones.
*giggles*
[yeah fine,i'm afraid of them too]
And he's a sweet dude.
He sang to me when I was sick.
[xD]
That's all.
Because I'm not really supposed to tell you ALL I know.
[because i will get killed by him]
So,yeah.
That's all.
[are you happy now,dude?]

♥
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