everyonekeepsonsayingthatiamnotemo,
buttheydon'tknowme,dothey?
myeyeslooksadmostofthetime,
butnoonenoticesit,
becauseitrytohideitunnderneathalayeroffakehappiness.
nooneunderstandsme,
noonecaresaboutme.
noonehearswhenicryatnight.
lifehasbeenhard.
sometimesiaskmyselfwhyibothertodothistomyself.
mypenknifeisalwaysnearme,icouldjusttakeitandkillmysel,can'ti?butidon't,anditellmyselfihavetobestrong,thatiamnotborkeneasily.
butican'tdeceivemyselfanylonger,truthis,insideiambreaking.
idon'tknowwhoiam,orwhati'vebecome.ijustknowthatiamslowlywithering.